Confused...

Good Morning Readers, Do I  even have any readers? Probably not, it's all good. Well here it goes. I know that today I would not want to be a teenager, WOW, I mean they have so much being thrown at them all at once at times, but the streeses of being the person who is watching them go through it and it really hurts sometimes because I can not do anything to help. It at times is very confusing and I just kinda sit there at times not knowing what to say, so I do the only thing I know and that is to ALWAYS let them know how important they are and how much they are loved and that I will always be there through it all. Being able to give back all the things I never had as a child. I started scrapbooking again and at times it is so confussing or painful, but looking back and knowing that GOD walked us through it all and always will. I do not even know if this is even making sense to anyone. My treatments are making my brain like jello..JK..Maybe. I love to watch "My life as Liz" because at times that is how I feel, the only difference is I do not have friends to talk to. I do not trust very easy and therefore I keep alot of this crap bottled up inside. I try to be nice to everyone and to help people who ask for help or just try to be the kind of friend I would like to have, and sometimes it blows up in my face or it comes back in a negitive way and once again I'm so CONFUSED. I don't even know if that is how you spell it. But anyway we watched Jersey Shore last night and it is so amazing to me how 2 people can be so in love and they turn around and strongly dislike one another. Now is that confusing or what? Sorry if I am jumping around. I have found this life thing at times is very confusing. The few people I do trust I hold very close to my heart and I cherish them with every fiber of my being. I have also learned that to have good friends you have to be the best kind of friend you can be. All of these life's lessons at times feel so overwhelming. I always need to remember that I only need to focus on what is in front of me and tune everything else out. Much easier said then done, that is why thet call it practice. Well I think I'm going to stop now. I pray you all have a great weekend and please stay safe.
Katz